axxon N.
American Beauty Syndrome
Scene Index
1) Rapid Eye Queen: The Final Scene
12) Of Space and Time I - Godsend
13) Of Space and Time II - American Beauty Syndrome
14) Of Space and Time III - Long is the Road
Written, performed, produced, and recorded by: Andrew Abraido & Daniel Taveras
Lyrics written by:
Andrew Abraido
Written and recorded October 2007 - February 2008
axxon N.'s second record, the aural film American Beauty Syndrome, is widely heralded as having the best lyrics of the three axxon albums. Written entirely by Andrew, the lyrics on this record are immensely focused, yet retain a gorgeous poetic aesthetic as well. ABS was a gigantic leap forward from both Here Is Not Better and Andrew's first solo record (under the pseudonym Circus For Silence), as most of the 'nonsense' was cut out in favor of focused poetic storytelling.
In the midst of writing the record, lines and phrases would come to Andrew at strange times (mostly inspired by his life at the time) which he scribbled on scraps of notebook paper during classes and bank deposit slips he kept in his car. The lyrics were slightly tweaked and modified from their original form to better fit the music, but retained their essence nevertheless. The lyrics as a whole for each song were more or less crafted around one particular phrasing per, and those phrases are highlighted with capital letters throughout this collection.
Rapid Eye Queen: The Final Scene
Today she sleeps late
Unafraid of kings and queens
Stalking bishop center now
In this life, the final scene
With a slash of the wrists
You thought we would fade
Foolish as magician now
Just waiting
For me to say this
Without a sound
Alive in the chamber
Patience I've found
Another one crawling
Over the grave
Roses in hand now
Dying to say
"I JUST MIGHT LET YOU GO".
Seeds
Enchanted gardens, setting now
Where I lay my dreams to sleep
Springing light and water down
And anchor roots to spread beneath
Meeting once and falling since
Fixing eyes and fixing pain
Sowing scapes of tiny hints
As sure as storms will bring the rain
And they say it's gonna rain down
And they say it's gonna rain down
And they say it's gonna rain
Down
Halos in an hourglass
Time is all that matters now
You for one and I for two
Destined since to each be bound
AND WHAT IF THIS ALL MAKES NO SENSE
Iron walls I've seen them fall
Sheltered from the storm I know
Impossible to scar at all
And they're gonna try and break down
And they're gonna try and break down
And they're gonna try and break
Down.
Deity
Darkness now consume the world
Fix your ears I'm coming home
Son of six I dim the light
And trust in all your lies tonight
Crimson lips taste bitter then
As she bites her tongue again
DEEPER NOW AND WITH COLD BLOOD
Taking lives now just for fun
For you dear a special line
ABS to make you mine
Crimson face I won't pretend
As she breaks my heart again.
The Lucid
Today we mark the slate
And throw the past away
MY DREAMS AND LIFE NOW MERGE
And swear these flaws to purge
Please steal my air, too buoyant to care
Fresh out of hell, your soul didn't sell
Our path is so clear, too loud not to hear
And now, up above, we're in...
Tonight I'll lie awake
And pray this life to take
Its time to ease the urge
A lust since gaining surge
Please steal my air, too buoyant to care
Fresh out of hell, your soul didn't sell
Our path is so clear, too loud not to hear
And now, up above, we're in...
Thief of my breath, too lucid for death
Dug from the ground, now aged with sound
Our future so bright, now turn out the light
And now, down from above, we're still in...
Love.
Pabst Blue
Alone here, with patience been
Waiting for the birth of sin
Without flesh I'm dying slow
Need catalyst, then I'm ready to go
Come on look at me
Tell me what you see
Look me in the eye
Vacant lullaby
Something's wrong with me
Don't need eyes to see
That it's crawling now
And it's seeping out
Take a piece of me
Just don't look at me
Have a drink with me
Come on and move with me
Let me order something please
Pabst blue to throw you on your knees
TIME TO KILL AND PEOPLE TOO
Pale but ripe I wait for you
Come on look at me
Tell me what you see
Look me in the eye
Vacant lullaby
Something's wrong with me
Don't need eyes to see
That it's crawling now
And it's seeping out
Take a piece of me
Just don't look at me
Have a drink with me
Come on come home with me
Alone, once was dormant on my seat
A lie to myself comes off so sweet
Good things come to those who wait
And death now for those who refuse to wake.
Carbon Doll
Take
One
Last
Breath
Hold it in
Hold me in
Remember this
I want you to take this
I want us to make this
I want you to love this
I want you to
I NEED YOU TO FEEL THIS
How is this for you
How is this for you
When you hear the tick
Time never stops
Clocks just explode
Glass in your eyes
Freezing time
Nothing left to dream
Nothing left to try
Shut up and enjoy
It's the happiest you'll be
Nothing left to say.
The Miner's Canary
Run
Run
Run you little pig
You think that this is gone
You wish
So wicked
You bleed
So ripe
You see
So dark
Such a shame
Little pig
Never learned to say
Remember this face
Remember this face
Trouble looms for the doomed and the damned
Run
Run little pig
Now fucking run back
This is all you have
Show them that it's not a waste
Now you've lost your fucking mind
Remember this face
Remember this face
Trouble looms for the doomed and the damned
Remember this face
Remember this face
TROUBLE LOOMS FOR THE DOOMED AND THE DAMNED.
The Other Sky
NOW
BLACK IS GONE
FROM YOUR EYES
I'm seeing fine
Enough to take
Take a ride
Now on the other sky
I'm doing fine he said
He said
He said:
"Hey, time to burn the sky"
Well, guess I'll learn to fly
"Hey, just forget your god"
Well, shouldn't be that hard
Now
Red has come
Just in time
Obey the one
Taking lives
With a gift
The other sky
Now open wide he said:
"Hey, time to burn the sky"
Well, guess I'll learn to fly
"Hey, just forget your god"
Well, shouldn't be that hard.
Girl's Got Ghosts
Girl
What is it that you dream
The glass once half full of sand
And now the specters reappear
And read you by the hand
Now that the shade falls down
You're crawling upside down
And inside out goes the bomb
Been ticking for some time
And now outside run away
From the heartless beat felt in your sleep
Now you turn
There's no hope for you girl
Be with your ghosts now
Girl
When is it that you'll learn
To put your ghosts of past on ice
To make a call of heads or tails
TO LOSE A FRIEND OR SAVE A LIFE
Now that the shade falls down
You're crawling upside down
And inside out goes the bomb
Been ticking for some time
And now outside run away
From the heartless beat felt in your sleep
Now you turn
There's no hope for you girl
Be with your ghosts now.
Ava
Sometimes I disappear into the life I never made
Filled with gold and batting eyes of ticketless array
The liar's tongue is something never wished for, never found
Treading thickens endlessly, molasses underground
She said:
"I sleep alone covered in nails
I lived a lie, tried it, and failed
Lips on the wrist I'm feeling pale
Trickless disguise, nobody...there"
Sometimes I disappear into the ship I never saved
SPLINTERING AND WATER-LOGGED LIKE WIDOWS ON A GRAVE
The liar's tongue is begging now to let it make a sound
Siphon off the innocence and waste another round
She said:
"I sleep alone covered in nails
I lived a lie, tried it, and failed
Lips on the wrist I'm feeling pale
Trickless disguise, nobody...there"
"I sleep alone covered in nails
I lived a lie, tried it, and failed
Lips on the wrist I'm feeling pale
Trickless disguise, nobody..."
The Fourth Wall
Maybe
This light has
More to shine and to believe
Maybe
It's not too
Late to change the final scene
Maybe
The worst has
Blown away with changing wind
And maybe
I'll find a
Way to take back every sin
Dreaming of the day I have control
TO UNEARTH A GOD AND SAVE THE WORLD
No one can hold me down, not anymore
To evolve is to be reborn
Maybe
This life has
More to give and to receive
Maybe
This reckless
Past I had caused you to leave
Maybe
The best of
Life has passed with lids glued closed
And maybe
I've fucked up
All that's been worth waking for
Dreaming of the day I learn to say...
Maybe
I'm just too
Cynical to be at peace
Maybe
This sickness
Will spell the end of my release
Or maybe
I'll learn just
What it is to love before
The collapse of space and time.
Of Space and Time I - Godsend
Don't get up now
It's too late
To join the fight to stay awake
Future now I've cast in stone
Mama, son is coming home
Gave you space I gave you time
Won't be long now 'til you're mine
Could have sworn
That you've heard
All of this before
And if time stops
For no man
Then what of...
I've got secrets miles wide
With god in hand you can't deny
That for the moment skin was new
We were one then you were two
That everything will end as planned
When red has flown throughout the land
Could have sworn
That you've heard
All of this before
AND IF TIME STOPS
FOR NO MAN
THEN WHAT OF BEAST
And I knew
That you'd turn
Silence into sleep
Rest your head
Wake up dead
Then you'll lie with me.
Of Space and Time II - American Beauty Syndrome
What is this
That you see
Living trend
A new disease
Keep it now
Under skin
Fading waves
Hell I'm in
Head above
Not for long
American
All along
Take a bow
Warm the lead
Ready now
Here I am
Here I am
Ready now
Warm the lead
Take a bow
Out of space
Out of time
No way back
Feeling fine
Fooling none
Anymore
American
Beauty whore
AND ALL I LOVED
WAS BUT A DREAM
To fade polite
A silent...
Scream.
Of Space and Time III - Long is the Road
I can't fight this
You can't find this
I beseech this
Complicate this
You can't fight this
I erase this
Engineer this
Fleeting thought yet again
Lie in this skin
Where have you been
Spreading flesh and
Patience now thin
Ready or not
Locking you in
Spreading a tale
Fuck this skin
Still can't fight this
Still can't find this
I beseech this
Complete madness
Tear apart this
Broken box this
Weathered heart that's
Beating black yet again
Loading the gun
Steady your hand
Ready to blow
Red on this land
REMEMBER THIS FACE
Sing it to sleep
And all that once was
Promise to keep.
REQ uiem
So here we are back at the start
YOU'RE IN PINE AND I'M IN HELL
To get back on that REM with you
All my hopes and dreams I'd sell
In love I am now with a sound
Your beating heart that's stopped with mine
In death I thought you'd be my queen
And love me 'til the end of time
Now I don't know
Now I'm not so sure
If I'll ever get to hold your ghost
Or lust for you (n)evermore.