axxon N.

American Beauty Syndrome

 

Scene Index

 

1) Rapid Eye Queen: The Final Scene

2) Seeds

3) Deity

4) The Lucid

5) Pabst Blue

6) Carbon Doll

7) The Miner's Canary

8) The Other Sky

9) Girl's Got Ghosts

10) Ava

11) The Fourth Wall

12) Of Space and Time I - Godsend

13) Of Space and Time II - American Beauty Syndrome

14) Of Space and Time III - Long is the Road

15) REQ uiem

 

 

 

 

Written, performed, produced, and recorded by: Andrew Abraido & Daniel Taveras

 

 

 

 

Lyrics written by:

Andrew Abraido

 

 

 

 

Written and recorded October 2007 - February 2008

 

 

 

 

axxon N.'s second record, the aural film American Beauty Syndrome, is widely heralded as having the best lyrics of the three axxon albums. Written entirely by Andrew, the lyrics on this record are immensely focused, yet retain a gorgeous poetic aesthetic as well. ABS was a gigantic leap forward from both Here Is Not Better and Andrew's first solo record (under the pseudonym Circus For Silence), as most of the 'nonsense' was cut out in favor of focused poetic storytelling.

 

In the midst of writing the record, lines and phrases would come to Andrew at strange times (mostly inspired by his life at the time) which he scribbled on scraps of notebook paper during classes and bank deposit slips he kept in his car. The lyrics were slightly tweaked and modified from their original form to better fit the music, but retained their essence nevertheless. The lyrics as a whole for each song were more or less crafted around one particular phrasing per, and those phrases are highlighted with capital letters throughout this collection.

Rapid Eye Queen: The Final Scene

Today she sleeps late

Unafraid of kings and queens

Stalking bishop center now

In this life, the final scene

With a slash of the wrists

You thought we would fade

Foolish as magician now

Just waiting

 

For me to say this

Without a sound

Alive in the chamber

Patience I've found

Another one crawling

Over the grave

Roses in hand now

Dying to say

"I JUST MIGHT LET YOU GO".

 

 

Seeds

Enchanted gardens, setting now

Where I lay my dreams to sleep

Springing light and water down

And anchor roots to spread beneath

Meeting once and falling since

Fixing eyes and fixing pain

Sowing scapes of tiny hints

As sure as storms will bring the rain

 

And they say it's gonna rain down

And they say it's gonna rain down

And they say it's gonna rain

Down

 

Halos in an hourglass

Time is all that matters now

You for one and I for two

Destined since to each be bound

AND WHAT IF THIS ALL MAKES NO SENSE

Iron walls I've seen them fall

Sheltered from the storm I know

Impossible to scar at all

 

And they're gonna try and break down

And they're gonna try and break down

And they're gonna try and break

Down.

 

 

Deity

Darkness now consume the world

Fix your ears I'm coming home

Son of six I dim the light

And trust in all your lies tonight

Crimson lips taste bitter then

As she bites her tongue again

 

DEEPER NOW AND WITH COLD BLOOD

Taking lives now just for fun

For you dear a special line

ABS to make you mine

Crimson face I won't pretend

As she breaks my heart again.

 

 

The Lucid

Today we mark the slate

And throw the past away

MY DREAMS AND LIFE NOW MERGE

And swear these flaws to purge

 

Please steal my air, too buoyant to care

Fresh out of hell, your soul didn't sell

Our path is so clear, too loud not to hear

And now, up above, we're in...

 

Tonight I'll lie awake

And pray this life to take

Its time to ease the urge

A lust since gaining surge

 

Please steal my air, too buoyant to care

Fresh out of hell, your soul didn't sell

Our path is so clear, too loud not to hear

And now, up above, we're in...

 

Thief of my breath, too lucid for death

Dug from the ground, now aged with sound

Our future so bright, now turn out the light

And now, down from above, we're still in...

 

Love.

 

 

Pabst Blue

Alone here, with patience been

Waiting for the birth of sin

Without flesh I'm dying slow

Need catalyst, then I'm ready to go

 

Come on look at me

Tell me what you see

Look me in the eye

Vacant lullaby

Something's wrong with me

Don't need eyes to see

That it's crawling now

And it's seeping out

Take a piece of me

Just don't look at me

Have a drink with me

Come on and move with me

 

Let me order something please

Pabst blue to throw you on your knees

TIME TO KILL AND PEOPLE TOO

Pale but ripe I wait for you

 

Come on look at me

Tell me what you see

Look me in the eye

Vacant lullaby

Something's wrong with me

Don't need eyes to see

That it's crawling now

And it's seeping out

Take a piece of me

Just don't look at me

Have a drink with me

Come on come home with me

 

Alone, once was dormant on my seat

A lie to myself comes off so sweet

Good things come to those who wait

And death now for those who refuse to wake.

 

 

Carbon Doll

Take

One

Last

Breath

Hold it in

Hold me in

Remember this

 

I want you to take this

I want us to make this

I want you to love this

I want you to

I NEED YOU TO FEEL THIS

 

How is this for you

How is this for you

When you hear the tick

Time never stops

Clocks just explode

Glass in your eyes

Freezing time

Nothing left to dream

Nothing left to try

Shut up and enjoy

It's the happiest you'll be

Nothing left to say.

 

 

The Miner's Canary

Run

Run

Run you little pig

You think that this is gone

You wish

So wicked

You bleed

So ripe

You see

So dark

Such a shame

Little pig

Never learned to say

 

Remember this face

Remember this face

Trouble looms for the doomed and the damned

 

Run

Run little pig

Now fucking run back

This is all you have

Show them that it's not a waste

Now you've lost your fucking mind

 

Remember this face

Remember this face

Trouble looms for the doomed and the damned

 

Remember this face

Remember this face

TROUBLE LOOMS FOR THE DOOMED AND THE DAMNED.

 

 

The Other Sky

NOW

BLACK IS GONE

FROM YOUR EYES

I'm seeing fine

Enough to take

Take a ride

Now on the other sky

I'm doing fine he said

He said

He said:

 

"Hey, time to burn the sky"

Well, guess I'll learn to fly

"Hey, just forget your god"

Well, shouldn't be that hard

 

Now

Red has come

Just in time

Obey the one

Taking lives

With a gift

The other sky

Now open wide he said:

 

"Hey, time to burn the sky"

Well, guess I'll learn to fly

"Hey, just forget your god"

Well, shouldn't be that hard.

 

 

Girl's Got Ghosts

Girl

What is it that you dream

The glass once half full of sand

And now the specters reappear

And read you by the hand

 

Now that the shade falls down

You're crawling upside down

And inside out goes the bomb

Been ticking for some time

And now outside run away

From the heartless beat felt in your sleep

Now you turn

There's no hope for you girl

Be with your ghosts now

 

Girl

When is it that you'll learn

To put your ghosts of past on ice

To make a call of heads or tails

TO LOSE A FRIEND OR SAVE A LIFE

 

Now that the shade falls down

You're crawling upside down

And inside out goes the bomb

Been ticking for some time

And now outside run away

From the heartless beat felt in your sleep

Now you turn

There's no hope for you girl

Be with your ghosts now.

 

 

Ava

Sometimes I disappear into the life I never made

Filled with gold and batting eyes of ticketless array

The liar's tongue is something never wished for, never found

Treading thickens endlessly, molasses underground

She said:

 

"I sleep alone covered in nails

I lived a lie, tried it, and failed

Lips on the wrist I'm feeling pale

Trickless disguise, nobody...there"

 

Sometimes I disappear into the ship I never saved

SPLINTERING AND WATER-LOGGED LIKE WIDOWS ON A GRAVE

The liar's tongue is begging now to let it make a sound

Siphon off the innocence and waste another round

She said:

 

"I sleep alone covered in nails

I lived a lie, tried it, and failed

Lips on the wrist I'm feeling pale

Trickless disguise, nobody...there"

 

"I sleep alone covered in nails

I lived a lie, tried it, and failed

Lips on the wrist I'm feeling pale

Trickless disguise, nobody..."

 

 

The Fourth Wall

Maybe

This light has

More to shine and to believe

Maybe

It's not too

Late to change the final scene

Maybe

The worst has

Blown away with changing wind

And maybe

I'll find a

Way to take back every sin

 

Dreaming of the day I have control

TO UNEARTH A GOD AND SAVE THE WORLD

No one can hold me down, not anymore

To evolve is to be reborn

 

Maybe

This life has

More to give and to receive

Maybe

This reckless

Past I had caused you to leave

Maybe

The best of

Life has passed with lids glued closed

And maybe

I've fucked up

All that's been worth waking for

 

Dreaming of the day I learn to say...

 

Maybe

I'm just too

Cynical to be at peace

Maybe

This sickness

Will spell the end of my release

Or maybe

I'll learn just

What it is to love before

 

The collapse of space and time.

 

 

Of Space and Time I - Godsend

Don't get up now

It's too late

To join the fight to stay awake

Future now I've cast in stone

Mama, son is coming home

Gave you space I gave you time

Won't be long now 'til you're mine

 

Could have sworn

That you've heard

All of this before

And if time stops

For no man

Then what of...

 

I've got secrets miles wide

With god in hand you can't deny

That for the moment skin was new

We were one then you were two

That everything will end as planned

When red has flown throughout the land

 

Could have sworn

That you've heard

All of this before

AND IF TIME STOPS

FOR NO MAN

THEN WHAT OF BEAST

 

And I knew

That you'd turn

Silence into sleep

Rest your head

Wake up dead

Then you'll lie with me.

 

 

Of Space and Time II - American Beauty Syndrome

What is this

That you see

Living trend

A new disease

Keep it now

Under skin

Fading waves

Hell I'm in

Head above

Not for long

American

All along

 

Take a bow

Warm the lead

Ready now

Here I am

 

Here I am

Ready now

Warm the lead

Take a bow

 

Out of space

Out of time

No way back

Feeling fine

Fooling none

Anymore

American

Beauty whore

AND ALL I LOVED

WAS BUT A DREAM

To fade polite

A silent...

 

Scream.

 

 

Of Space and Time III - Long is the Road

I can't fight this

You can't find this

I beseech this

Complicate this

You can't fight this

I erase this

Engineer this

Fleeting thought yet again

 

Lie in this skin

Where have you been

Spreading flesh and

Patience now thin

Ready or not

Locking you in

Spreading a tale

Fuck this skin

 

Still can't fight this

Still can't find this

I beseech this

Complete madness

Tear apart this

Broken box this

Weathered heart that's

Beating black yet again

 

Loading the gun

Steady your hand

Ready to blow

Red on this land

REMEMBER THIS FACE

Sing it to sleep

And all that once was

Promise to keep.

 

 

REQ uiem

So here we are back at the start

YOU'RE IN PINE AND I'M IN HELL

To get back on that REM with you

All my hopes and dreams I'd sell

In love I am now with a sound

Your beating heart that's stopped with mine

In death I thought you'd be my queen

And love me 'til the end of time

 

Now I don't know

Now I'm not so sure

If I'll ever get to hold your ghost

Or lust for you (n)evermore.